2006-07-24T18:48:00.000-07:00

I am dedicating this to my Master. MasterK9, this is a weak attempt to show the bond between a Master and His slave. I do not intend to speak for the feelings that You have for Your slaves, nor do I try to speak for the feelings of any other slaves. I only wish to display the feelings that this slave has for You.

Some 2 years ago when we began to chat on an occassional basis something inside told me that You were the Master that I truly longed for. You display a sense of control, an authority that is so natural to You that it flows like a river that could never be stopped.

When we first met, face to face, I was overtaken by that control. It wrapped itself around me, giving me a feeling of security to which I could not compare. I knew that if I never did anything else, I would serve You to the best of my ability, in every conceivable fashion, as often as I was permitted to do so. When You offered me Your collar to wear, I was breathless. I knew this would lead to a journey in this lifestyle that submissives search years to find, and many never do.

I knew my feelings for You were strong, however Your absence was like a loss or an emptiness that I never anticipated. Every second that I have spent chatting with You since Your return has been like a precious gift to me. Hearing Your voice magnifies my feelings 10 fold, and increases my anticipation of the time W/we shall spend together. Master, I cannot thank You enough for the gift that You have given me. The gift of control, the gift of being mastered by You.

I want to say that I am returning that gift to You by offering You my heart and my soul, but how can I offer You something that from the moment You said, "the collar is Yours" was totally and completely owned by You. I no longer had control of it, it no longer was mine to give to You.

The best I can do, is everyday, submit to You as completely as I can. The fact that our relationship is of distance makes it difficult at times. At other times it perhaps enhances it, as I work harder to please You.

I am not a perfect slave, and I still struggle with issues, and I still fail at things. I am still human and the best that I can do is not give up, and continue to try. I want You to be proud of me, and I rejoice in hearing Your praise. I cry in pain, from my failures. It is not a physical pain, but an emotional one.

I thank You Master for Your strength, Your control, Your guidance, and Your touch. I extend to You in any fashion that I am able, my total submission. You do own me, heart and soul.

Heart & Soul